i wish for a better life, please

Im on a lot of pressure right now :( he told me to study bebanar for this 'o' thingy, but cemana aku kan concerntrate. how am i suppose to concerntrate on my studies when theyre the one yang always making me stress, lalai memikirkan hal durang saja. sometimes, i just feel like running away from home, too much pressure :( kekadang jua, i feel envy kalau liat teenagers, selalu rapat sama parentsnya and siblingsnya, jealous ku. mun aku macam apa, betagur sama babah pun sepatah dua patah kata jua saja kali sehari, while mama kalau dibawa becakap kana kasari. same goes to my siblings. I JUST WISH TO HAVE A BETTER LIFE. and yes danny, although me and you selalu argue with each other, doesnt mean that i dont love you anymore. i love you, infact sometimes i feel like most of the time, aku happy kalau sama kau saja, walaupun now kita contact through facebook saja, i just feel ease to be able to contact you. kau sumber kegembiraan ku. i love you shah danny al hakimi :)